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| I'm So Confuse & Hurt With All These Things Happening!! |
Yeap, this ain't a happy post 'cause i'm not happy.. I'm feeling useless, down, emo, heartbroken & any feelings which are related to all that i said above, it's a bummer 'cause i'm working and when i'm down, usually i don't do my work well, i play around & i got distracted so easily.. so, this is what happen, this morning i was happily-text-ting with fiancé, so when i arrived office around 8 AM, i informed him that i'm safely arrived, & he replied me with, what i felt that his texts are kinda angry, saying that i'm late and asking where did i go cause i went out early, whereas i went out around 7.45 - 7.50 AM, it always make me feel frustrated when his asked me those questions 'cause i'm tired of him questioning my loyalty.. We're now in the state of getting married, planning things together, getting committed to each other & he thinks that i'm still playing, having scandals & all.. Seriously, i need to think straight before making my decision & i did, he's my 1st & he's also my last lover, that's all i wanted.. not being questioned all the time, so i asked him, why is he mad, i went out late & drove slow, everything i do seems to annoy him, if i drove slow or fast, he get mad & even if i do or don't have any scandal, he stills question me. The very worst part which made me feel that way, he call me stupid, & he announce me as "KAU" instead of "SYG". If he want things to go as normal then i'm willing to ask for forgiveness if i'm wrong or right, if he don't have that feeling anymore, no more love then let me go.. it's simple unless we;re married, that's another different story to be written. *Sigh*
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| & Yes, He Fucking-Ly Broke My Heart!! |
